GRE's
Posted at 06:02 AM

I'm taking my graduate record examinations tomorrow! (it's like the SAT's but for undergrads trying to get into grad school)

Then I'll finally be free to hang out for the whole rest of the summer.

:) 

Jealousy.
Posted at 02:30 PM

I hate the fact that I can't stop or control my jealousy very well!

I try to block it out, forget about it, and rationalize it, but whenever I look at pictures of them together (not intentionally I swear! I just come across them on facebook looking at other people's photos.)  my whole body would turn green and little green squiggles would pop up above my head if I were a cartoon character.  And then I wonder why it only ever seems to be women that have such petty issues like jealousy.  I rarely hear about guys getting jealous.  How do they just magically seem to not get jealous?

And how can I magically not get jealous? 

It's the Beginning of the End
Posted at 09:55 PM

Of my last year as an undergraduate here at the Georgia Institute of Technology.  School starts Monday and I cannot WAIT to get away from home and back to school.  I've been cooped at home for far too long, though I have been granted reprieves to go hang out with people on the weekends. 

 How did these college years go by so fast?  It really felt like last week that I was moving into the dorms for the first time.  And it really felt like yesterday that I studied abroad in Barcelona.  But I was reminded by friends that it was three years ago!  If any of you are starting college or about to start, I'd advise you to carpe diem and cling fast to your memories!  I remembered I absolutely detested GAtech as a freshman.  And now it's not so bad.  I'm getting all teary-eyed just thinking about it.  Ugh. I hate getting all emo over stupid stuff like this.

I've been painting some more, perhaps I'll put my work up on here sometime.  Ever since I got back from my trip, I've been having the urge to paint in large scale.

Left to My Own Devices
Posted at 01:09 AM

Sometimes it happens when I'm driving.

Sometimes it happens right when I'm trying to fall asleep.

Sometimes it even happens when I'm in the shower.

What's happening? The thoughts of my most embarrassing or worst things I've ever done wander across my mind.  I re-live each of these awful memories to its most vivid detail!  As I think of them, I shudder and cringe.  Half of the time I'm laughing at myself.  This makes it quite awkward when a neighboring driver looks over and sees me half wincing, half laughing - at apparently nothing.

It's most annoying when I'm trying to sleep.  I'll lie there in bed, and remember when my ex-bf's step-mom grilled me at his graduation lunch, and then I mentally writhe and my heart rate speeds up, and then I can't fall asleep for a long time.

They don't happen frequently, just maybe a few times a week, only when I'm alone and have too much time to think.

And then there was the incident today, where I was walking down the driveway to collect the mail from the mailbox, when the memory of falling down a teensy flight of stairs at the grocery store in Barcelona flusters me -  and I tripped on a crack on my driveway and fell flat on my face. 

Oh irony of ironies.